LIFE ||| FAKE THINGS FALL OFF

Like I said in this post I've no insecurity, ofcos I know my nails are big but I'm proud I've got them.

i fixed my nails two Saturdays ago and that they are falling off, just nails ooo then let's talk about fake attitude, love, friends, etc. anything fake falls off sooner than expected.

This is dedicated to everyone who have ever thought of going fake for love, likes, respect or anything.

I took my phone, login to my Facebook handle and went straight to blessing's profile, the girl I was madly in love with - no homo, I just admired everything about her, to me she was living the life and I wanted to be like her by all means, whenever I go to her profile I always felt inferior, she had the likes(what almost everyone on Facebook really want), the friends, the love from her friends, her make-up was always on fleek, her clothes were the latest, everything about her I loved. I spent more time on blessing profile than books or anything, so you can imagine I spent most times feeling inferior, bad and asking God why I came from a poor family.
Mama, who is a civil servant and caterer has been the only one training I and my four siblings ever since papa died 12years ago although most times I get help from my uncle(papa elder brother) and my aunt(mama elder sister).
I started using the little pocket money I get to buy clothes and shoes just to look like blessing truth is I was in a secret competition with my crush but each time I upload a picture I don't even look like her neither do I get the likes or the friends, I still felt she was winning... Ahn! ahn! But wait o, where she dey get all these money from? She's not working neither is she a student and boom! it dawned on me! She's either a sex worker or she's dating a rich nigga.So to be like her I would do either of the two, No, sex worker is not an option, mama is a deaconess in the Apostolic church(TAC), I can't imagine what will happen to mama if the church finally get to know.
Dating a rich nigga, yes, my final solution but I don't wanna be control by a man simply because he's giving me stipends and I'll have to be giving him sex in exchange for money and clothes - is what niggas do this days, if you can't satisfy them on bed then they don't see the need of spending on you, having sex now? No, I want to have sex with my husband alone! I want to give him my virginity, I want him to be the first to dig in, I want him to be the first I'd go intimate with - I recall when mama took me she wanted a gift from my future husband.....You know that old tradition that if you marry a virgin you take gift to her parents for training her well? Mama held unto it.
After all the thinking I made one decision which I'm glad I did, I told myself I'm different from that person and I can never be that person.
I am me
I am amazing
I am wonderfully made and won't change for anyone or anything.

Be you no matter what, tell the world it has to adjust to the real you cause fake things fall off sooner just like my nails.

Do have a blessed day.