THE ANTIDOTE TO SELF DOUBT

I don't know how to write - well ofcos that's what i use to say to myself, i felt ashamed each time I try to sketch out words from my feelings, i did stop writing but know this, the only way to improve is writing.

FORGIVE MY MANNERS, IT'S BEEN A WHILE DEARIES
HOW ARE YOU?
HOW IS THE OUTER WORLD? I GUESS IT'S CRUEL AS ALWAYS BUT WE HAVE TO HOLD ON

During my small little break I learnt something, something I've always known but never practiced, something that works like magic, it's cures self doubt faster than and drugs, if it continuously taken - inasmuch as you need is, don't take overdose, it might develop to a bigger problem.

On one of cassie daves posts on instagram, she talked about her insecurity and asked to share ours, I had to let someone hear my heart cry and so I on the comment section told her, "I love writing but I don't think i can, her reply, is one of the reasons I am typing this today.

oh, no you should totally write if you love writing, I found out that gassing myself makes me feel a lot better..

i started to gas myself and gassing myself has made me realize that I can do better, gassing has been my antidote and I'm pretty sure you can do a lot more if you start gassing yourself instead of beating yourself for your imperfection which is humane.

BONUS TIP
practice gassing everyday, you could talk or write short notes to yourself - who says it can be long, it's your choice anyways.

get in the comment box let's interact
how do you deal with self doubt?
have ever gassed yourself? then how do you do it?

LIFE ||| 5 SWIFT STEPS TO BECOME THE LADY YOU DESIRE

I've seen ladies who don't like to live the way they do, they desire a life very different from theirs or should I say the want to be like this person or that person - I can totally relate to this — use to be my life and I sure know it can be frustrating when you keep trying and fail, not to worry I've put up the right steps for you. These steps will teach you how to be grow into your desired  'YOU' person.

1. Who do you want to be like and why? — your first step is knowing your desired woman and why you want to fit into her shoes, as you meditate you can write it down. Get a concrete reason for wanting to be like her.

2. How different are you from your desired woman? —  continue by discovering the difference between you two, you can also write this down.

3. Are you ready to adjust? — your desired woman made some sacrifices to be desired today, are you willing to change and make those sacrifices?

4. Get to work — time to work hard, time to break those old habit, time to make sacrifices.

5. Don't go hard on yourself: understand that changing into a new person and breaking old habits are difficult tasks and you can't do that overnight, but you definitely can do it — if I could then you can, so don't give up on yourself, make mistakes and learn from it.

I hope this few steps help you in your journey of becoming the woman you've always dreamt to be, don't forget to drop more steps if you know on the comment box.

Photo credit: Elizabeth ibia

LIFE ||| FAKE THINGS FALL OFF

Like I said in this post I've no insecurity, ofcos I know my nails are big but I'm proud I've got them.

i fixed my nails two Saturdays ago and that they are falling off, just nails ooo then let's talk about fake attitude, love, friends, etc. anything fake falls off sooner than expected.

This is dedicated to everyone who have ever thought of going fake for love, likes, respect or anything.

I took my phone, login to my Facebook handle and went straight to blessing's profile, the girl I was madly in love with - no homo, I just admired everything about her, to me she was living the life and I wanted to be like her by all means, whenever I go to her profile I always felt inferior, she had the likes(what almost everyone on Facebook really want), the friends, the love from her friends, her make-up was always on fleek, her clothes were the latest, everything about her I loved. I spent more time on blessing profile than books or anything, so you can imagine I spent most times feeling inferior, bad and asking God why I came from a poor family.
Mama, who is a civil servant and caterer has been the only one training I and my four siblings ever since papa died 12years ago although most times I get help from my uncle(papa elder brother) and my aunt(mama elder sister).
I started using the little pocket money I get to buy clothes and shoes just to look like blessing truth is I was in a secret competition with my crush but each time I upload a picture I don't even look like her neither do I get the likes or the friends, I still felt she was winning... Ahn! ahn! But wait o, where she dey get all these money from? She's not working neither is she a student and boom! it dawned on me! She's either a sex worker or she's dating a rich nigga.So to be like her I would do either of the two, No, sex worker is not an option, mama is a deaconess in the Apostolic church(TAC), I can't imagine what will happen to mama if the church finally get to know.
Dating a rich nigga, yes, my final solution but I don't wanna be control by a man simply because he's giving me stipends and I'll have to be giving him sex in exchange for money and clothes - is what niggas do this days, if you can't satisfy them on bed then they don't see the need of spending on you, having sex now? No, I want to have sex with my husband alone! I want to give him my virginity, I want him to be the first to dig in, I want him to be the first I'd go intimate with - I recall when mama took me she wanted a gift from my future husband.....You know that old tradition that if you marry a virgin you take gift to her parents for training her well? Mama held unto it.
After all the thinking I made one decision which I'm glad I did, I told myself I'm different from that person and I can never be that person.
I am me
I am amazing
I am wonderfully made and won't change for anyone or anything.

Be you no matter what, tell the world it has to adjust to the real you cause fake things fall off sooner just like my nails.

Do have a blessed day.

LIFE ||| YOUR OPINION ON THE SEX AND GOSPEL COMBO

I saw this somewhere and I recalled when a friend of mine came to the house to tell me what happened the night before.
According to him, he was about to 'bang' this girl when she started singing a gospel song and in my mind I was like what a combo?
You are fornicating and playing gospel song, are you trying to remind God you need to be punished or something? I don't and will never understand.
This is up for you, what do you reading this think about this combo?